Relaxing with dad.
I fell for a man a long time ago…
I’ve loved said man every single hour of every single day since I became aware of his existence.
I’ve loved him to death even when I hated him.
I loved him even when he walked away from me and a lot more when he got married to someone else, when he promised to love someone else for the rest of his life.
I was there for him when they lost their babies and realized they would never have any kids.
I supported him when he got ill and I cried happy tears when he got better.
I love him even now that we’ve grown apart, even though It is on me, really, because the way I loved him through these years was consuming (yes, I’m sort of quoting Burke here). I needed out of such toxic relationship. But I do think of him and I miss him more than I’ve ever missed anyone.
I love him even now that I seem to be falling for someone else. And I know the feeling will remain ‘till the end of my days for I have grown as a person around his absence but also around his presence.
IM SO FUCKING MAD I JUST MADE THAT EXACT FUCKING FACE GOD DAMNIT
GRIMES // GOVERNORS BALL // JUNE 6, 2014
"Space is big. Really big. You just won’t believe how vastly, hugely, mind-bogglingly big it is.”